I am horrified to see that the last update was back in February of this year. A lot went on in my life and none was pleasant. After beating bladder cancer and just checking out the rest of my health since I am a paraplegic. In an area where I had a past wound we discovered to my horror again that I had developed skin cancer in the scar tissue, due to the area being injured over and over again over the years. I did not even know it was possible to get skin cancer that way. I went in for some surgery to remove some or all of it. Well they did not get it all and during that stay something went terribly wrong. I still am not 100% sure as I was also having a drug reaction that would make me forget periods of time and in essence have a different personality. Well apparently my kidneys failed, no idea why they were healthy when I went down there. I also apparently did not have 1 surgery, I had 4 much to my surprise after being filled in months latter. Yes months latter. See it is hard for relatives and even your wife to fill you in on everything that happens when well to be honest you have almost full amnesia over. I was there one day, then someone else for a week and then back again. In my mind only the night had passed. I am still trying to figure it all out, reading my hospital records and asking questions. To make matters even worse, that other personality was the 100% opposite of me. It was mean, abusive, and well it hurts to think about it and what I may have said. People around me know it was the drug but still, it came out of me.
I am still dealing with the issues of all of this. I still have a large wound that needs another surgery to remove whats left of the cancer, unless they decide on chemo. So far though it sounds like it will be surgery. After that I hopefully can work on healing or getting the wound closed up for good. Then I can think longer down the line to eventually getting my legs amputated. Yes I do mean cut off. They are of zero use to me, they make it harder for me to get around, they could honestly kill me by throwing a clot, and honestly I am not one of those that will ever benefit from all of the new technology such as stem cells.
I have been stuck in bed for some time. I actually spent a lot of the year in either the hospital and then a rehab hospital. I did not even get out until August of this year. It still really hurts to sit up in my chair and the doctor has limited the time I should do it. I do however plan on buying another wheelchair that fully reclines so that I can get up and around yet still stay somewhat laying down. That should get me out of my room more often and restore some sanity and well give more help to my ever patient wife who has put up with all of this.
I do love cooking and I have really discovered that I am pretty damn good at teaching people how to do it as well, even over the phone. To be honest my wife never was much of a cook and she just had a few dishes she knew. So over the past few months I would walk her through dishes over the phone. Now she can whip up even new dishes with very little input and they are pretty damn good. There are misses, but the last couple months I must say her hits have been shining and I can barely remember a bad dish. She even got about a 90% on how I like my potato salad (another post), with next to no direction. Did I mention I am so picky about potato salad that I rarely eat anyone else’s?
Back to the blog. I do plan on keeping up with it now assuming I can. I also will be posting some or possibly many of my wives dishes on here. Honestly she barely even knows about this site and is a bit shy, so I may just keep it hush hush for awhile. They are good though. I just wanted to apologize for not being present for the last 8 months. Very few things on the web irritate me as much as an abandoned site that just stays there with nothing happening on it at all. I also really am starting to hate how this blog looks. So do not be surprised if you do see some changes in how it looks. Lastly some of you should comment, I do not bite and I know your visiting, I do see the stats after all.
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